Thursday, August 06, 2009
; 3:35 AM
still not able to slp!...not becos i can't fall asleep, not becos i don wanna slp but i have work to do!
it so diffcult this days..i can't fight the feeling of rejection inside anymore.. it's getting stronger by the min! i cannot take it!! i know tt i'm running with no directions cos i realise i hate this course tt i'm studying yet i donno wat i wanna do other then this!!! i donno i'm just so clueless..
and i can no longer fake that everything is aright, everything is intact! i can see,feel, know that everything is falling apart..i have no1 to tell cos nobody understands and i don feel like talking to ppl that don understand! it's Pain-stricken to make a person that is ignorant of how you feel understand your pain! no point! no use!
the reply i'm gg to get is only gg to make me feel more helpless!!
pls nobody is to type Jiayou things will be better cos it won't and its still not!!! i ratter you not do this kind of stupid thing!!! its not gg to help in any way!
It so Agonising to see all my friend work hard and suffering but doing the things tt they like, pursuing their dream! yet i cannot see myself infuture doing wat i'm studying this really makes it hard for me to strive in my studies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
pls pls pls i really feel like crying i cannot fight this feeling anymore. its killing me i feel lik dying!!!!!! i cannot take this anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
